I have so much going through my mind now but i don't know what do i want to blog.
I have been flying to and fro kl frequently to visit my parents and i think i've to stay here temporarily to take care of the house errands and be here with my father.
Since my father is sick, i have suddenly became the pillar of the family, seeing that i'm the only one who's the nearest to them. After they left for KL, i was alone in the house, taking care of myself and everything else. Sometimes, i am amazed by myself, because how calm i am to take one thing at a time and to inform people who ask about my father. For the first few days, it's quite difficult tho. Friends said i can handle things all by myself, but i am really affraid that there'll be one day when i cannot handle it anymore. There're so many times i feel like breaking down and cry out loud, but i just couldn't do it, probably it's not the time yet, or probably, i am not as weak as i thought?
Few things i learned during this difficult time:
1. Never to let anyone tell you what to do
2. Never to make yourself feel guilty because you've done what you know best at that very moment
3. Never to take anything for granted
4. Cherish what you have now before you regret it
