Art of learning.

Years ago, i learned about blogging.

Months ago, i learned to read others' blogs and absorb whatever good/bad points from there.

Today, i learned to change my blog skin, ^_^ nothing high-tech i know, but it's something for me and and and, i also learned to use Photoshop.....very begineer stage of course. But i am content and i shall improve. Actually i just wanna use photoshop to insert a line of name into the photos that i post here because i am a skeptical person like that okay? I feel very insecure thinking that people might just download the photos freely and use it for only God knows what purpose. So, better do something although i'm still facing the same risk, i feel safe, at least.

The photo will contain the blog's domain like that after i Photoshopped it. Ah....a good start! Btw, that's Melissa back for the Easter weekend.

Easter Vigil.

Baptism is finally over and what is my feeling now? It's kinda exaggerating to say i feel "pure" or "fresh" or "anew" or things like that but i do feel that i have made myself a more responsible person because i think religion is always teaching us to be a good person. Now that i've had my baptism, i have a greater responsibility to be a good samaritan, not a villain. This is because i see myself as part of the Catholic community and every little thing i do now, it reflects the community's teaching and also my faith I have brought myself to believe in.

The most common question i was asked during my time of going to the Church was "what makes you feel like going to the Church?" or "What makes you convert to a Catholic?" I think i can have a very simple and a very complicated answer to that. Simple, as i can say it's because i like it, it's making sense to me or even i get to have a church wedding (although non-catholic can also have church wedding, it's just a blessing ceremony). Complicated, because religion is always a sensitive issue to talk about, especially with someone who has a different faith from us, it's just difficult to make them fully understand and not misunderstood our intention to pick up a religion belief. For example, someone actually assumes (* ahem) it was all because of my boyfriend that i joined the community but truth be told, of course it's not because of anyone, i mean, religion is something very personal in terms of it touches different individual in a different way and someone can only have faith with a certain religion provided that someone truly believes and accepts the teaching. I did not get mad at that shallow someone, in fact, i felt kinda happy because it's somehow a blessing in disguise meaning that someone actually expecting me to get married with my boyfriend, in the church. I am not sure whether it's my high EQ or my belief in God that makes me think like that but i think i choose the latter.

I have to admit that all my life, i've been mingling with Christian and i've been going to the church every now and then, it's also due to this off and on to the church and teachings from the Sunday School that makes me feel a stronger urge to know more about God and makes me feel more comfortable with it. I am very grateful to come across with RCIA. Joining the RCIA did not make me understand God instantly, but it's a good starting point for someone who doesn't have a strong background knowledge of Catholic. Sharing in RCIA ranges from the ancient history of Catholic to its evolution with era that captured my sense and made me realize who we truly are and it certainly clarifies the myths that troubled me from reading Da Vincci Code. At times, i think that Catholic teaching is also leading us to have a more positive and constructive mindset and it's rather inspiring.

From what i have heard to what i have witnessed to what i have learned and to what i've experienced myself, i choose to believe what i feel comfortable with and i will always be faithful to my belief and i truly thank God for his Grace and mercy and believing that He will guide me to eternal life and will not let me be astray from His path.

Some snapshots from the Baptism night.

Yes, it's a full immersion for adult baptism and our animators have told us not to hold on to the Bishop's legs... -_- which, luckily no one did. However, my friend told me that i wasn't fully summerged to the water, you know why? He pronounced my name wrongly! @#$%^ Do i get another baptism then??

After a round of kelam-kabut-ness in the changing room, finally, we were all dressed up nicely, like angels in white o_O , walking into the Church with our holy candle lit, resembling our path is guided with God's light.

Then, we were given the opportunity to present our offerings to the Church.

It's also tonight that I received my first Holy Eucharist and the feeling was indescribable. Knowing that the body and blood of Christ is in you, it just makes you feel different and be humble instantly to confess all our sins.

Last but not least, all of us who got baptized/confirmation that night. May God bless us all.

And, and, and i would like to thank my very beautiful and kind God parent, Olivia and her daughter, for being very helpful and supportive on that night. She had a gift for me and it's just so kind of her to be so detailed and considerate. Thank you and i'm loving the the effort you took to pack up the gift.

Thus, the journey continues to His Kingdom.......

Hair cut.

Baby Chloe just got her hair cut last week. Daddy Alan said that she's growing fast and likes to talk now. If you don't talk to her, she'll start to protest in her blatant crying vocal till you surrender to her. Anyway, this is how she looks like after the hair cut. 

A bit bold right??

Myvi... My car.

i got my new car today, finally.

the car registration number is somehow my birthdate, glad about that too and it's also somehow similar to mum's car registration number hehe...

gotta get some air freshener for him because i just dont like the smell of a new car, it just doesnt smell good.

Yeah!

i think i should name my car since my friend M named hers Valentino coz she got her car on Valentine's Day.... -_-

i am starting to have troubles taking care of the car on the 2nd day coz it'll look so dirty even with a tiny bit of dust on top of it and having said that, parking it at the workplace will make it looks like i've been to the safari EVERYDAY. no one to blame -_-

i'll try my best to take good care of it (god knows for how long?)

313.

You never fail to treat me like a little girl and cheer me up when i am emo and down with PMS while inside of you, you behave like a boy too. Still, you have to put up with all these girl stuffs because of me. For that, i truly thank you for always being by my side and for your consolations, albeit not all sweet and flowery, i think you've always healed my broken spirits and stopped me from committing more sins. You've always brought me out from my dark thoughts and disturbed minds with your smile and with your words.

Although it's a short night and a simple celebration, i hope you liked it and enjoyed the time we spent together, not just tonight but everyday. For me, i sure hope there's still plenty of birthdays to celebrate in the near future.

~some Sabah Escargot

~ Your Lobster yeemee with egg sauce

~ blur photo but i like it

Happy Birthday to you, my darling!

Addiction

*Edited - my definition for gossip girl after watching the show

Gossip Girl - Someone who will never tell a lie if the truth will do more damages (spot on!)

Every time when I start to watch a new TV drama, i'll get myself addicted to it and i'll make myself think that this is the best ever tv series that i've watched. So, i'm watching Gossip Girl recently, to be more accurate, non-stop, every episode back-to-back until i am totally hooked up with the beautiful and superficial characters in the drama.

*Photo stole from Ponikuta~

Gossip Girl is so x 1000 awesome! Go check out her blog. You'll know what i mean after you start watching and reading about it.

Too bad they are on break now and returning in April....oh my....i think i'm suffering from Gossip Girl deficiency syndrom already!

Everything new.

It's merely 3rd week of the month and i must say there are quite a few things are going on with my life so far.

Firstly, i traded my car to get another new one because the maintenance fee of the old car is getting a little too much nowadays and my parents have been nagging me to get it changed. So i did. I must admit there is a little awkward feeling when i passed the car key to the dealer this morning. I felt..... as if i am not going to see a good friend anymore with a shameful feeling at the same time, yes...i feel like i am a traitor. The metaphor of my feeling is somehow similar to a guy who has cheated on his gf and finally dump the gf for another girl. Yes,i am having this kinda feeling now. I feel somehow sorry to my car but i have no choice, i have to give it up and opt for another new car.

Then, it's my baptism next week. Some say, you are a different person after baptism because all your mortal sins will be washed away and forgiven is granted by the Heavenly Father and you are just as good as a new born baby. In my journey of faith, i'm told that we can always ask for forgiveness through reconciliation or confession. In one of the Gossip Girl episodes, Blair had her rather funny yet self-convincing confession after sleeping with one of her friends and she thinks this can wipe away the distasteful sin. It got me thinking, can we really forgive and forget what we wished we did not do? Maybe we'll feel better morally that, whatever wrong we have are forgiven, but can we really forget about all of that? My say is, of course we can't forget nor we can't pretend that nothing had happened, but what we can do is, we take all of them as lessons that prevent us from making the same mistake for the second time. People always say, if you repeat the same mistake, that means you never learn and did not grow. So, i guess a confession is good in a way that it can force us to be honest to ourselves and encourage us to always be a good Samaritan, all we have to do is to be brave to face and admit our mistakes and learn from them after that. Therefore, i hang a crucifix in my car just to remind myself to speak kindly, care deeply and love generously whenever i am driving so i don't curse the other drivers and having to feel bad and guilty for myself after that.

Also, it's already a year i've worked in this office and albeit the unhappy moments and stress at times, things are doing so far so good, i even got a pay increment.Whenever i feel like i wanna leave, i tell myself that where can you find a place with no stress, no deadlines, no sour faces and most important issue: a pay like that? Unless you are your own boss but i guess that's more pressured and stressed! So, it's not so bad after all. In fact, i shouldn't be complaining i suppose.

Can't wait till next week because all good things will come together, my new car and a new me and oh...a pay check with a little increment by end of the month.

p/s: Lucky me that i've got the white garment ready for baptism and i don't have to get a Saint's name as my middle name because Alice is a Saint's name.

Been lazy this week thus no exciting stuffs, no happy moments, no unforgetable time and no nothing.

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I just carry out my daily routine and nothing more, nothing less.

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Do I complacent about this? Or should I lament about the dull life?


p/s: It's the boyfriend's birthday next week and I am trying to make a plan for both of us ^_^

Hm....

According to the 100% accurate kennysia.com Who-To-Vote-This-Election Decision Generator™, I am voting for...

PARTI KEADILAN RAKYAT!

Who Should You Vote For This Election?

Yeap.....that's it. According to Kenny Sia's Who-to-vote-this-election-decision-generator, i should vote for the abovementioned party and Kenny Sia said his decision generator is 100% accurate. But i still don't know what's that.....

p/s: I'm a political idiot thus 100% politically neutral. The above statement is just for FUN.